Show Bizz.... Yahhhhh!!!
Since I skipped my tap dance class last week, I wanted to practice a lot this week.
I usually take an advance class that starts at 14:30, and I knew that a biginner class starts at 13:00. So I decided to attend the beginner class before attending the advance class to catch up with others. (People in the advance class are soooooo good at dancing... I guess they have been tap dancing more than 5 years... I can never catch up with them.)
Anyway, I went to the class at 13:00, and I found out that there was a young guy who was teaching tap dance to about 30 or 40 students in the room.
I didn't recognize him at all, coz my teacher should be a middle age woman. But some stundents in the class looked familier to me.
So I just thought there might be an extra lesson or workshop or something.
But I started wondering who he was, since many students in the class were asking him for his autograph, and also take a photo with him....
Hmmmmm who is he??? Is he a celebrity or something???
But I soon forgot about him once my class started.
My feed didn't move as they used to be... there are more than 2 years brank after I quit taking a tap dance class in Seattle... so I can not dance as well as I used to... but I'm trying to brush up my skill now.
So, I always try to concentrate on practicing and to master all skeps I learn in the class.
So my mind got too busy to think about him anymore.
But as we took a break in the advance class, one of the students asked me if I perticipated in the workshop today.
Of course I said no, since I didn't even know that they had a whorshop today.
Then I asked her who he is, AND i was really really surprised when she told me who he was....
Oh my god, he is one of the guys who made me wanna start tap dancing again!!!!
He is a guy in the movie "Za to ichi", who performed the tap dance at the end of the movie.
Actually, I decided to take a tap dance class again in Japan, when I saw the movie.
WOW!
And also, he is a son of my teacher!!!!
Oh my god!!!!!
I am very very very honored to be in my class now....
coz he is a guy who made me wanna tap dance! And yeah, I was taking a class without knowing that he is a son of my teacher!!!
Ohhhhhh this is sooooo exciting and surprising....!!!!
Ok now, I'm trying to keep going to the class and be able to tap dance better.
I will, I will try. I promised it to myself.
I WILL DO IT!!!
TRAIN GOES
電車の中の、絶対に絶対に絶対に私が許せないタイプの人
＊洗練されたかっこの若い女の人が、隣の席で眠りにおちいり、頭をよっかけてくる。
見かけだけはいっちょまえに「Beauty」気取りなのに、眠りこけてる甘ったれた姿を赤の他人に見せてるところがだいっ嫌い。
デリカシーゼロ。内面が外見にまけっぱなし。キレイな人ぶってるだけにがっくり。
寝るなら垂直に寝ろ。
＊スーツのサラリーマンが、サンデーとかジャンプとか系の分厚い週間マンガ誌を読んでる姿！
最近、一番結婚したくないタイプ上位に食い込んできた、こういうみっともない男。
サラリーマンになってまで、毎週気になるのかね、ストーリーの行方が。
はっきりいって、ロマンとか色気から最もかけ離れた種類の哺乳類です。
＊座席に座ってる私の目の前に仁王立って圧力をかけてくるだけでなく、
私が電車を降りようとしてるのに目の前から退く気配のない、
目の前の私ではなく私のお尻の下の座席しか見えてないおやじぃぃぃぃ！
あんた、あたしが降りなかったら座れないんだから、どきなさいよ、私の目の前から、おどきなさいよ！！！
どうしてこんなに貪欲になるのさ。たかが座席に。人に不快感を与えてまでさ。。。
電車の中にまれに見られる、目を奪われてしまう愛すべき人達。
＊ひょろっとしたいまどきの地味目の大学生の男の子が、日経ビジネスとか一生懸命読んでる姿。
授業の発表のためか、自分の興味のためか知らないけど、
どこにでもいそうな、学食で２，３人の男の子同士で固まって、あんまり積極的に学校行事とかに参加しなさそうな、
居酒屋ならウェイターじゃなくて奥の厨房でもくもくと鳥とか焼いてそうな、細めの、ほんとに普通の男の子が、
そーゆーの読んでると、う、ちょっとそそられる。
＊イケイケのおねーちゃんが、新聞をオヤジの様に縦半分に折って、
隣の人に当たらないように気をつけながら読んでいる姿。
なんだ、あたまぱーの腰掛ＯＬかと思わせといて、意外と貫禄あってかっこよいんじゃん？？
＊お尻見せそうなスカートとばっちり化粧された女子高生が、
真剣に偏差値の心配して、テスト勉強の時間振り分けについて友達と相談してる姿。
学べ学べ～～～！
外見と中身の生み出すギャップが、魅力を作ってるんだと思うんだよね。少なくとも私にはそうだな。
いかにもな外見に、いかにもな中身しかくっついてないんじゃ、面白くもなんともない。
みかけからは想像もできない話し方とか、趣向とか、その人を知っていくうちに出てくる意外性に、人間のロマンがあるよね。
たとえば、電車の中の話だけじゃないけど、
でっかい図体で人のスーツケースとかひょいっと持ち上げられる大男が、電気器具の説明書を背中を丸くして一生懸命拾い読みしてる姿とかさ。
からだの細くてちびっこい華奢な女の子が、実は剣道部の主将で倍も体重があるような男部員に練習教えてます！とかさ。
だらしないセンスゼロの格好しかできない無口なか細いオヤジが、実はお料理教室開ける資格まで持ってるほどの腕前！！とか。
校則もきちんと守る先生のお気に入りの優等生が、家では大音量でパンクＭＵＳＩＣにあわせて頭振って踊っちゃったりさ。
くだらない漫画家かと思ったら、実はすごーく深いテーマの物語を作っちゃった！とかね。
だって、スーツがばっちり似合うパリパリのビジネスマンを見て、仕事できるんだろうなってあこがれるのは簡単だけど、
だらしない古びたＴシャツと短パン姿なのに、実は誰よりも分析力、判断力が優れている！とか、
糊の利いたシャツとセンスのいいネクタイの紳士が、突然エロチックな爆弾発言！とか、
そういう男のほうが、セクシーだよねぇ。
そう思わん？
Girl, interrupted
I had been reading a book titled "Girl, interrupted" on the train for these few days. This is a true story based on the author's experience of her days when she was in a mental hospital from her age 17 to 20. The hospital was like a rehabilitation center where patients (most of them are teenage-girls) live together in a same building. It's nothing defferent from a normal high school dormitory, except for the fact that the residents need to take medicine & therapy everyday.
Anyway, I started wondering what the definition of "crazy" person.
Who is normal? and who's not?
The main charactor, the 17 year-old-girl could be both sane and insane, either sane or insane.
Her condition was like just like what most of us had when we were teenagers.
You know, you naturally keep wondering and can not be really sure what you wanna do, what you expect for the world, and how you could build up a good relationship with others.
And you are afraid of being different from others, coz if you act or think differently from others, then people might take you as "crazy".
People can never get rid of this fear, even after you get older, you are still unsure about things about yourself and yeah, it seems like everyone but you has already mastered the skill of living the life.
But this skill, even though it's very effective for some people's life, might not be necessary for your life. You must find out your own skill, you are the only who could discover the skill and improve it, according how your life goes.
But teenagers are too young to realize it, since they have lived in a limited world with family and school, and haved little ooportunity to brush up your view of the life.
No one to accept your charactor just because you are a bit different from others, and that leads you to start wondering, "Am I crazy to think like this? Am I crazy to act like that?"
How could other people manage this feeling?
Why am I treated as weird, though I am 100% normal in my world?
I don't understand what is bad about me, I don't get why I'm suffering from things so much, but I don't know, I don't know how to treat myself.
because, this is me. No one understand myself since no one could completely become me, no one could experience how I feel.
So, who decides who to be crazy and who to be normal?
If everyone act "crazy" would they be called "normal", and would "normal" people be "crazy"?
I don't know.
I just think.... it's bullshit to judge someone's personality.
Let the person to be himself/herself.
Ahhh... it's getting too complicated and I'm not smart enough to keep thinking about this...
My new year 2005
It's been already a week since the first day of 2005.
I had only 5 days off as a new years break, but yeah, I should say it was still nice.
I did help my parents to clean all parts of my house,
I visited my grandma who keeps saying that my appearance & attitude are getting close to my mom (and I keep telling my mom that her appearance & attitude are getting close to my grandma! I'm 100% sure that all of us got same blood in our veins.),
I went shopping, a big big sale to buy suits (oh yeah they are damn cheap now and those suits make me feel like I am a super cool business woman, hehehe),
I went to a shrine with my high school friends for new year's praying (there were too many people in Kamakura that it took us more than 1 hour from the gate of shrine to where we can toss coins & make a wish!),
I had a big pot party at my friend's place (yes! having a hot pot with Kimchee can never be greater than anything else to do in winter.),
and yes, now I'm back to work.
I used to go skiing & traveling at the end of year, so this year's activities were kind of unnormal for me.
I had thought I might get bored during the break without any "special plan", but it was pretty fast and enjoyable break for me.
Since I'm back to my job, it's been hard to get myself accustomed to the regular time cycle again.
But I'm now having a exciting job that makes me wanna learn more about Africa.
I'm helping a famous professional photographer to collect information of Africa, since he is planning to take a photo shooting trip.
I am not sure if I can actually start a business with him and make money, but I'm still happy that I got a chance to meet a guy who has devoted himself to what he is meant to be, and never spare his effort for his job, as a professional photographer.
I saw some photos of mountains that he had taken last year.
I'm totally ammateur of photo-taking skill, so I can't tell what makes so special about his work.
And personally I enjoy taking & watching photos of daily stuff or daily scene, so it's hard to tell a quality of photos of great nature.
But I can at least tell that he does have a skill of making himself toward to what he is setting a goal for. Yeah, I like him.
So well... yeah I can not avoid from being busy at work now, but I am fine as long as I have a motivation and will to get to know new things.
I think working for a company isn't as bad as people had told me or I had expected.
I guess it may be just because I was lucky enough to have great co-workers, but getting to know new things to help my co-workers and seeing my contribution is what I had never done before.
And that's what facilitates people to work, I guess.
